People think I'm strong but really, underneath this shell lies two very different personalities. Ever wondered why you could never figure me out? That's because you're not seeing the two personalities as being separate from each other. One of them is tough, bitter, disillusioned, swears, and doesn't want anything to do with insufferable bloody idiots; The other one is innocent, forever hopeful, idealistic, loves fairytales and looks forward to finding the perfect man. Both of them know that the perfect man is: 1) NOT an idiot. 2) Enjoys and appreciates their sense of humour. 3) Can handle her mood swings. 4) Able to keep up with her or, better yet, be one step ahead of her sometimes.

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Why do I do this to myself??? I go and see things - things that I don't really want to see - to burn them into my mind, to remember them. What the heck is the use of that? Knowing stuff that makes me hurt inside won't speed up the healing process, it only rips the wounds wide open. I wasn't really lying when I told Vivian this afternoon that I didn't care what was said about him but I am still obsessed with them. I am such a weird person.
I'm going to make my story so good that it will be published and then I'll be famous. When that happens, I'll be so happy that none of this will matter anymore. How wonderful~ Haha...
Oh, forget it, who am I trying to kid? I am so confused right now that I couldn't tell you who I am! I am an idiot. Only idiots do what I did. Too trusting and ready to believe everything that others tell me.